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Reminiscing~

I dont know why. I cant help it. I miss you. There's always something that remind me of you. You're not the best i ever had, but still i used to loved you. And its true.

So, how's life without me? Happy? Better now? Actually I dont know what to say, I dream of you last night. We're talking like nothing happen. Laughing. We look sooooo happy together. There's your big family too. I wish I never wake up, but i know it's just too good and too perfect to be true.

What you feel, when we're broke-up. Are you happy? Sad? Or feel glad? Hmm? I dont really want to know. Keep it for yourself. You should known what's the best for you. Easy, boy, I have this photograph and memories that always remind me of you. I can still feel you sense, I have your hoodie with me.

Well, maybe we're better on separated. Live your life and I'll live mine. 
I'll walk away so you dont have to see me cry.

Best wishes for you.
I MISS YOU :')

"Now I Know" - A Gabe Bondoc Original

RAINBOW

i love rainbow.

A rainbow is an optical and meteorological phenomenon that causes a spectrum of light to appear in the sky when the sun shines on to droplets of moisture in the Earth's atmosphere. It takes the form of multi-colored arc, with red on the outer part of the arc and violet on the inner section.

A rainbow spans a continous spectrum of color, the distinct bands are an artifact of human color vision. Rainbow can be caused by other form of water than rain, including mist, spray and dew.

Chinesse Wisdom

1. Travel a thousand miles begins with a step

2. A beautiful diamond can not be polished without friction, like a human being enhanced with the trial of life

3. Better to light a candle than curse the darkness

4. Asking questions like a fool for 5 minutes is better than not asking, because he remains a fool forever

5. If you want nobody to know, you shouldn't do it

6. Give someone a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach someone to fishing and you'll feed him for a lifetime

7. The best time to plant a tree is 20 years ago. The second best time is : TODAY!

8. If you want to know your past, look at your current condition. If you want to know your future, look at your action today

9. A conversation with a wise man is better than 10 years of study

10. Life is partly what me make, and partly determined by the friends we choose

A Girl Things

To make a girl smile, you dont have to give her a bucket of rosses and tell her that you love her everytime. Sometimes, small thing make her happy and cant stop smiling!
To do it, it's as easy as doing this things :

1. tell her she's beautiful, not hot or sexy
2. hold her hand just because you care and love her
3. when you're talking to her, see her eyes
4. Play with her hair
5. Hug her from behind
6. Don't hang out with your ex, it's kill her inside
7. Introduce her to your friend and family as your girlfriend
8. Wrestle with her, and let her win
9. Call her to wake her up
10. Let her sleep in your arm
11. Look into her eyes and tell her, you love her
12. Get jealous!
13. Give your best smile when you with her
14. Spend more time with her, because she's important to you
15. Remember her birthday and give her something 'hand-made'
16. Call if you promise, she love to hear your voice even less than 3 minutes
17. Give her your favorite T-shirt, she'll wear to bed
18. Give her teddy bear doll, she'll hug it while sleeping
19. Give her jewelry, she'll treasure it forever
20. When she's mad, kiss her. don't fight back
21. Don't hug anyone before her
22. Recognize the small things
23. Kiss her in forehead, it's means you love her
24. If you talked to another girl, walk over to her when you're done and kiss her
25. Pick her up even if she say no

Last but not least : If you care, show her! Talk less, do more.

Someone that love you~

1. Is the most annoying person , but no matter what you'll miss them

2. Can't tell the reason why they love you. cause they just did!

3. Hold your hand, because they won't let you go

4. Will cry in front of you. At that moment, you've touch their heart.

5. Can't really remember special day like your anniversary, or your birthday cause for them, everyday's special when you're around

6. Always try to make you smile, even sometimes, they do it in a wrong and complicated way

7. Never fight back, when you two arguing. They'll wait until you calm down, and start talking heart to heart. Cause they know, when you're angry, their arguement means nothing.

8. Will keep everything from you, even just a small paper with "I Love You" inside their wallet

9. Will try to fix your broken parts from the past

10. Letting you go with someone you love, for you happiness, even if it hurts them

Broken parts

I dont know what's this. I dont know why. I dont know whose to blame for all this pain I feel. Don't you hate it, when  the one that hurt you is the one who you want to run to just to feel better? Or when someone you care most turn into total stranger? Or you miss all moment you've been trough and you know you can only reminiscing it, without any chance to repeat it? I HATE IT!

On April 19,2010 I wrote about growing old with someone. The one that sing me my favorite song and the one that i can always count on to. Yes, him. But now, i feel like i dont even know him! I feel like such an idiot, believe in everything he said to me. All the promises and sweet things. Cause now, I got nothing except this pain I feel.

Last night, he asked me why I look so upset. How should I tell when it's about him? What am I supposed to say, after I saw his love photo album with his new girl? I cried. Lucky you, girl. I bet and I have to admit that you got everything that Im not. And the most important thing, you got his heart. Whole heart and make me feel like Im nothing in front of him. Thanks! :')

I never felt this way, about loving you.. It's killing me everytime we talking about us. Like last night? After almost 2 month since your last break-up call, you call me! Where have you been, ha? Why now? When I'm trying so hard to forget you and convince myself that i'll be okay without you. Talking with you cant ease my pain, it's getting worse altough~

You know what hurts most? You said to me, that NOBODY understand you, not even ME! The only person that understand and know you is her. Yeah, your girl. Well, maybe she's got your brain inside her head! How could you said that after all the time we spend together, talking about things. About life, love, pain. Remember the day you said to me that you love me cause you learn a lot of thing from me? Oh, maybe you just forget or you want to forget it. I used to love when you yelling at me, try to make me think and solve my problem with my brain not my heart. You're the only person that tell me stupid without hurting me, cause I know, that means you want me to learn how to survive in this big scary and painful world.

Well,  I cant change anything anyway. So I just want to thank you for everything you've gave to me. Your time, your love, your pain, your stories. Thank you for letting me learn about living on my own, make my own decision, and tell me how to use my brain instead of heart. Thank you, boy!

I know it's sounds lame but it's so true. I know it's not right, but it seems unfair. All things are reminding me of you. I'll be missing every little thing we used to do. I'll miss talking to you on the phone until the sunrise. I'll miss crying for you when you even don't know that I'm crying. When I am feeling down you made that face you do,  there's no one in this world could replace you! I wonder if feel the same way to~


Thank you, boy!
Take care yourself.
I wish you all the best in everything.

I love you. I really do.

Just saying and sharing

When relationship ends, two people that used to be in love, starts to forget each other and sometimes hurt each other even more.. They starts thinking why it didn't work out and blaming each other. Other people, like family and friends starts to wonder and asking why they split up, and here it goes.. 2 different story! There's always 2 side in every story. But the real story? Stays between them.

Break up always cause a broken heart. And people think that they should find somebody new to heal and fix their broken parts. Even when the pain haven't gone yet, they convince themselves that their fine and ready to move on. But, moving on is not as easy as how it look like. They have to be sure, that they ready. Ready to forgive what their partner did, forgive themselves for being a jerk, wipe those tears and forget the past. There's one important thing, don't push yourself too hard. Because, when you force yourself to forget and move on, is harder to do it, anyway.

Maybe now, you're over them. That's good! But, remember, a broken heart may cause pain, but the real pain is from the memories! Yes, it's the memories that kills you. Because memory stays in your mind and heart forever.When you're over someone, there will be time that suddenly, something just remind you of something you want to forget.You'll start reminiscing and missing those old time when you're a couple.. Like a movie played on your heads..

And finally they're move on and open their heart for someone new, you saw them walking and doing things you used to do together. You'll tell yourself that your strong enough to face it. Acting normal and pretend that your happy for them when actually you're heart knows that's should be you beside them..

When you're break up and still friends, either you both never really in love or you're still in love with each other!

i miss this moment(s)

DUFAN - 14 MEI 2009
MY BIRTHDAY :)

INUL VISTA - 1 MARET 2009

ANDIKA'S BIRTHDAY

YEARBOOK PHOTOSHOOT!

IPA - C

AROUND JAKARTA !

IPA - C

 

MY 18th BIRTHDAY SURPRISE ;)

14 MEI 2009

GRADUATION NIGHT :)

PROM AND AFTER PARTY 2009

PKN CLASS

PAK MASYA, NGAMBEK!

..OH, HOW I MISS THESE MOMENT(s) :D

i wish i could turn back time...

Grow old with you

...You know how much you mean to me. You know exactly what I feel inside. You also know that I'm just a kinda girl that too afraid to say 'I ♥ you' to someone as random as you.
I don't care with ur 'un-ordinary' condition. I really don't care! I ♥ you the way you are. The way you make me smile, the way you comfort me with ur laughter, the way you make me look stupid and smart at the same time. I ♥ the way you sing my favorite song. I ♥ the way you make me angry and cry when you even don't know I'm crying on the phone.

Boy, trust me. If we're meant to be together, than we'll be.
I'm sorry if done something wrong. I didn't mean to.
Don't you realize that it's killing me inside everytime we talk about us?
Because I really don't know what to say, how do I prove that, yes, I do need you. I do ♥ you!

You're something that I never choose but at the same time something I don't wanna lose.

I ♥ you.
Yes, I do!

waktu yg bergulir

malam ini hening,
sunyi buat sbuah hati..
hanya ada aku,
air merintih dan angin yg bertiup
rumput2pun bergoyang,
menari seolah tak hiraukan keberadaan ku
untuk melihat,mendengar,dan merasakan
hal yg tidak kuyakinkan ini pernah ada

ketika aku tau ini nyata
hatiku bergejolak,menjerit pilu
cm 1 pertanyaan dalam benakku,,
kenapa ada ini??

air hujan tak pernah bercerita ap itu kepedihan
tpi derasnya air hujan menceritakan apa itu makna dari tetesan air mata
setiap tetesan memiliki arti detik yg berbeda2

sudah cukup...
aku tak tau kapan waktu ku usai
aku tak tau kapan detik ku habis
dan aku tak tau kapan tetesan itu berakhir

beri satu kesempatan buat smua ini
‎​walau 1 tetesan seblum detik ini tamat dari kehidupanku
....
aku tak mau melihat tetesan itu mengalir dari air matamu lgy..
krn aku ingin satu tetesan itu km simpan dihati kamu
yg membuktikan bahwa aku ini pernah ada dihati kamu
dan itu alasan kmu utk tetap slalu tersenyum walaupun aku sudah tiada.

A
25-12-2009

tetes terakhir

Setetes hujan yang turun, mengingatkanku padamu.
Khayalku melayang, jauh.
Membayangkan masa indah itu.
Membayangkan bahagia itu.
Angin membisikkan namamu.
Lalu aku sadar, kau hanya sebuah bayang masa lalu.
Aku telah berjanji pada tetes hujan untuk tersenyum,
Aku berjanji pada setiap butirannya untuk menatap ke depan dan melupakan semua yang melemahkanku.
Hujan, sampaikan rinduku padanya.
Aku tidak akan mati, aku kuat.
Ini hanya membuatku tak bisa berjalan seperti dulu.
Ini hanya membuat senyumku semu.
Tapi aku hidup, aku berjanji pada tetesnya.
Tetesan itu yang akan ku ingat, tetes itu yang menguatkanku.
Tetes terakhir itu yang menjadi saksi kau berarti untukku.
Tetes itu ku simpan dalam hati.
Aku pun tak tau kapan ini berakhir, kapan ini usai?
Yang kutahu, kini kau benar2 pergi.
Tak ku dengar lagi suara mu.
Tak ku dengar lagi rayu manjamu.
Dan, aku hanya punya setetes hujan untuk mengingatmu.
Simpan segalanya dalam hatimu.
Ingatlah, aku selalu menyimpanmu dalam hatiku. Selalu.

A
03/01/10